eh fuck this la. im fucking tired of listening to your shit. go away go away go away!

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ignore the above, it's only meant for a few people and they are not my friends anyway.

my life has been uneventful lately. except for the fact that MY PIANO EXAM IS IN TWO WEEKS' TIME OH MY FUCKING GOD but yeah nothing else. :D

im fucking screwed lol

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists:
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

Pablo Neruda

i have no idea what you all (read: shernie) want to learn from me also :P i teach you swear words la lol.

ファック; fakku: fuck

seriously im not kidding lol.

aiya stop bloody whining la. people change.

i have been playing music from the FF series and i should really stop and practice my exam songs but damn im really bad at playing chopin :(

not enough expression!!!

WHY, SINGAPORE, WHY?!!!?!!

WHY HAVE YOU TAKEN MY BELOVED DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE AWAY FROM ME?!?!?!!?

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


for more information, see link

first i missed explosions in the sky, now im missing deathcab ARGH ARGH ARGH

*cries*

edit: i am seriously annoyed lor! but i cannot write about what i'm annoyed with because ... because of some reasons i also cannot write about gah. fuck i burned my tongue bye

the world -
it's turning.





to all you people complaining about your idiotic problems on your blog: please realize that.

life goes on.



this post is only for idiots, not people with real problems. but idiots tend to think their problems are huge anyway. hopefully my readers aren't idiots.

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.


1. What musical instrument do you wish to play?
Cello! But since I'm going to learn it soon (omg!!!! *bubbles with joy*), I shall say clarinet.


2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
TOUR? Somewhere with amazing scenery and no shopping. Because tours don't give you good opportunities to shop!


3.What is your definition of a friend?
Well there are different kinds of friends - real friends are the ones who are close enough to you that they can call you a selfish bitch and you won't get upset. And you can do the same to them! Then there are the rest, who are really just acquaintances.


4. Do you think money can buy happiness?
Honestly, yes. I'd be a damn sight happier if my family had more money.


5. If you have an issue/problem/question that is unsolved, and should you given the chance to unravel the mystery, would you dig deep for the answer?
Yes. I don't need to be given the chance, I do enough digging when left to my own devices.


6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Impossible la. Money makes the world go round.


7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
Certain people.


8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Go on a holiday with someone I love, buy a couple of pairs of really AWESOME shoes, indulge in Fine Dining (fuih) then bank/invest the rest.


9. What is the one thing that makes you happy?
Being accepted for who I am, and being loved despite all the shit I do. Other than that: my piano, definitely. Because my piano listens, my piano answers me in music, my piano cannot betray me.


10. What's the latest good deed that you did?
Nada. Ok gotlah but cannot tell here :P imagine whatever you want!!!!


11. What are the requirements that you wish from the other half?
Security. Not in the financial sense; I mean emotionally. If s/he can provide that then I'd count myself very, very lucky.


12. What type of person do you hate the most?
People who make false promises. If you can't keep it, and you know you can't keep it, don't bloody make it. This doesn't include people who try their hardest to keep a promise but can't - because trying your best is, to me, the same as keeping it.



13. Are you a touchy-feely person?
No, not at all. I can't stand people massaging my shoulders when I neither ask for it nor want it. I don't like people linking arms with me, I don't like shaking hands, I really hate it when they hug me. There are people excepted from this rule, but for the most part, don't touch if you don't know how I feel about you. But, I mean, I don't mind if lessay the touching occurs during a conversation that goes something like this:

Friend: Eh Twilight damn nice la
Me: What the hell is wrong with you
Friend: Don't be such a bitch la!!! *whacks*

So yes I don't mind whacking haha. Just be careful with the more intimate touching.


14. If you could teleport once, where would you go?
Secret. ;) It's personal la haiyoh.


15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Excluding my nearest and dearest, it would be music. Without my piano I would die. Seriously.


16. If you could undo doing one mistake in the past, what would it be?
Oh, so many to choose from... The one I would undo is, of course, personal. I should have been more tactful, should have been more patient, should have this should have that. Should haves can't change anything. :\


17. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
The deceitful part.


18. What is the one thing you definitely can do without?
My insomnia.


19. What is the one thing you cannot do but you wish you could?
Public speak. No, seriously, I can't. I get really horrible stage-fright.. :( So even if my speech is the stuff that heaven is made of, I'd still get last place hahaha.


20. How'd you feel if your friends back stabbed you?
How would I feel? Well, that depends what they said. Because everyone gossips, you know? I can't say I speak kindly of every single one of my friends behind their backs. There are some bad things I say as well. But if it was something really, really bad, first I'd be furious. At this point I would possibly do some very horrible things to the said friend. Then I'd feel very betrayed, then depressed, then indifferent. I'd probably stay quite cool towards the friend, even though I'd have forgiven him/her by then. I can't let people walk all over me right haha.

today has been a rollercoaster of emotions!

I spent the whole day making a top hat.

GO ME!!!!!!!

(it's not a very nice top hat, but i MADE IT FROM SCRATCH WITHOUT BLACK CLOTH OK? i deserve some credit! and its too small because ai ling's head is very small... or my head and my brother's head = insanely big)

i will take pictures when AI LING wears it 8D

i'm not drunk.

really.

Tomorrow, I am going to shove my big, thick REFERENCE BOOK (why, what were you thinking?) into Puan Ong's prissy, sour face, because I have no hope of getting an A for Science any longer.

Haih yeah I'm upset. A lot of people are. But I think I'm one of the more upset ones because I was actually expecting an A this time :\ And I didn't get it, and it kind of hurts.

I'll get over it.

in other news:

i said I CUT MY HAIR, not I CUT MY HAIR SHORT. :P so yeah that explains the lack of short hair to my schoolmates! all kena conned nicely, haha.

1. Who's Rin dating?
No one at the moment?

2. Cheeps and Mahcy are forced to roleplay out a verbal couple fight. Who gets to play the wife?
Mahcy la : P They're probably fighting about how much Mahcy spends anyway since she's such a waste of money.

3. If Jacq and Jenn were locked in the same (really small) room for longer than a day, what would most likely happen?
Wahliao. Die la. Hahaha. Actually no they probably can tahan each others' company what. Right. ... Right..

4. Ever slept in the same room with Starry?
Nope. I havent seen her in a long time :(

5. What song could be Guki's theme song?
UM. Any GHEY song. Like, the NicoNicoDouga song :D

6. Describe Cheeps in five words.
He is just too cute :D

7. Does Khei Qi make you hot?
WAH PIANG! no no no and NO

8. Do you do anything special with Jacq?
That depends what 'anything special' is la i guess. Like, we have our Siao Days 8D

9. Who would you rather get stuck in handcuffs with, Jacq or Jenn?
Jacq la. Lol. Got more to talk about :P

10. If Khei Qi played in a movie, what kind of character would they play?
UMMM??? The siao fella who's scared to death of big dogs?

11. Name something you have in common with Jin?
Our obsession with Starbucks' caramel macchiatos.

12. Who would win in a duel, Jin or Wenji? And what kind of duel would they pick, anyway?
What KIND of duel!? How I know??? Who can blackmail the chunnest probably since THEY'RE BOTH INSANELY GOOD AT THAT. >( But Wenji would win coz she's evil.

13. What would you do if Khei Qi confessed love to you?
I escort her to the toilet to puke la. Coz it's obvious she's drunk.

14. Wenji just got vaporized in a freak accident. Now what?
OMG YAY NO MORE CHAINS HAHAHAHAHA - i mean, omg, *cries*

15. In a race between you, Zhen Han and Charlie , who would win?
How I know. Me la. I dunno la lol

16. Ry-ann suddenly knows all your secrets. What do you have to say about that?
What the fuck? No way that's ever gonna happen la haha. I'd never let it happen, for one thing. And -nobody- knows all my secrets so it's impossible!!!

17. Does Charlie have any pets?
If you count Banana, yes!

18. Have you ever been in Charlie 's house?
No.

19. Would you open a mystery gift Mahcy just gave you, without much hesitation?
I'd ask someone to open it for me :P

20. How do your and Ry-ann's talents add up?
Wah, we'd be like the most awesome person in the world. Mostly because I already am the most awesome person in the world.

Charlie is drunked? says (11:34 PM):
what fruit makes you curious
lumiere says (11:34 PM):
um
do i want to know
Charlie is drunked? says (11:34 PM):
lol guess LA
lumiere says (11:34 PM):
thinking!
Charlie is drunked? says (11:34 PM):
no need to think so long?! hantam ni!!!
lumiere says (11:35 PM):
cannot!!!!
i have principlessssssss
Charlie is drunked? says (11:35 PM):
for LAME JOKES?
lumiere says (11:35 PM):
YES
D:
Charlie is drunked? says (11:35 PM):
btw see not red : D
lumiere says (11:35 PM):
............................
Charlie is drunked? says (11:35 PM):
lol don't la
lumiere says (11:35 PM):
ya because everything is GREY
Charlie is drunked? says (11:35 PM):
LOL
no
the back there
got red
lumiere says (11:35 PM):
MMMM YA YA
Charlie is drunked? says (11:35 PM):
hahaha
Charlie is drunked? says (11:36 PM):
actually i'm not drunk but i feel drunk
is there a difference
anyway
lumiere says (11:36 PM):
no
: P
Charlie is drunked? says (11:36 PM):
guess the fruit!!!
lumiere says (11:36 PM):
how i KNOW la wtf papaya nah
Charlie is drunked? says (11:36 PM):
no
strawberry
lumiere says (11:36 PM):
ok
ok
i didnt laugh
Charlie is drunked? says (11:36 PM):
THAT'S NOT THE PUNCHLINE LA : ((((
lumiere says (11:36 PM):
ya but damn random
Charlie is drunked? says (11:37 PM):
you're supposed to ask "why"
then i say "SEE"
YOU SPOILT IT : P
lumiere says (11:37 PM):
YAY
lol
Charlie is drunked? says (11:37 PM):
LOL
lumiere says (11:37 PM):
cannot ask me these kind of jokes
Charlie is drunked? says (11:37 PM):
damn you la

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lumiere says (1:02 AM):
eh damn funny you roll your chair away
do again
lumiere says (1:03 AM):
omg im so easily amused
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:03 AM):
LOLLLLLLL
WTF LA
lumiere says (1:03 AM):
but
but!!!!
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:03 AM):
want me to roll other side
lumiere says (1:03 AM):
YA YA
oh my god
what happened to me
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:03 AM):
LOL ya what happened to you
lumiere says (1:03 AM):
i dunno la!!!!!
i just find it damn funny
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:04 AM):
you idiot you made me roll the chair over my toe lol
lumiere says (1:04 AM):
PADAN
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:04 AM):
PADAN WHAT : P WHO ASK ME TO DO
LOL
lumiere says (1:04 AM):
WHO ASK YOU LISTEN ok sorry joking please dont stop listening to me lol
damn funny la!!!!!
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:04 AM):
LOL what the hell la
for your bday i make a looping gif of me doing it in both directions
lumiere says (1:05 AM):
that would be
quite awesome
lol
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:05 AM):
lol seriously ah
ok i do
hahahahhaha
lumiere says (1:05 AM):
oh god what is wrong with me
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:05 AM):
please, PLEASE do NOT use it in any forums oh my god
lumiere says (1:05 AM):
its ok i dont go forumming anymore
but dont worry
my blog still alive

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lumiere says (1:47 AM):
but damnit my 2nd brother's friends damn funny one
i ask you "IQ question"
i think you know edi coz you so lame
anyway
got 10 indians standing in front of a white wall, then someone take a photo
whats it called
the photo i mean
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:48 AM):
uh
francis
lol
lumiere says (1:48 AM):
HA????
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:48 AM):
LOL
ok what
lumiere says (1:48 AM):
what nonsense u tokkin
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:48 AM):
i dunno WHAT
lumiere says (1:49 AM):
i tell you LA
...
barcode
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:49 AM):
LOLLL
why so stupid one
lumiere says (1:49 AM):
he invent one LOLOLOL
damn funny ok
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:49 AM):
omg wei not bad
LOL

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lumiere says (1:51 AM):
malu wei!!!
but ya
all his lame jokes i can answer one
lumiere says (1:52 AM):
like the condo one
and the mango and watermelon one
and superman
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:52 AM):
what wassat
tell me
lumiere says (1:52 AM):
you dunno the condo one ah
can show irl only
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:52 AM):
no
lumiere says (1:52 AM):
superman also
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:52 AM):
show la
webcam
lumiere says (1:52 AM):
duwan
slow
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:52 AM):
: (
lumiere says (1:52 AM):
ok la i show la
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:52 AM):
do slowly oso la
lumiere says (1:52 AM):
lol
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:52 AM):
lol
lumiere says (1:52 AM):
if this is condo
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:52 AM):
ok
lumiere says (1:52 AM):
what is this
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:52 AM):
flatdo
LOL
lumiere says (1:52 AM):
WHY YOU ADD DO LOL
FLAT LA!!??!?!
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:53 AM):
AHAHHAHAHAHAHA
but then if i don't a do then it has nothing to do with condo!!!
lumiere says (1:53 AM):
eh the superman one i tell you answer d cannot lol
a condo is an apartment thingy right
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:53 AM):
nvm i still want to see
lol
lumiere says (1:53 AM):
a flat is also an apartment thingy right
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:53 AM):
oh LOL
lumiere says (1:53 AM):
OMG SO SLOW
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:53 AM):
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA
lumiere says (1:53 AM):
I FIRST TIME CAN ANSWER D
WTF
LOSER
lumiere says (1:54 AM):
I THOUGHT YOU DAMN LAME ONE
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:54 AM):
flatdo
LOLLLL
lumiere says (1:54 AM):
oh my god
hahaha
i killed you
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:54 AM):
aduh stomach ache
lumiere says (1:54 AM):
walau lol that joke damn funny la
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:54 AM):
eh tell me superman LAAA
lumiere says (1:54 AM):
but i think only work so well when you're that slow
okokok!!!
if this is batman begins
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:54 AM):
LOL i'm tired OKAY
lumiere says (1:54 AM):
what is this
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:55 AM):
batman come back
no wait superman come back
lol
omg
lumiere says (1:55 AM):
superman returns la!!!!!!
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:55 AM):
this is embarrassing
LOLLLL
I DOWAN TO PLAY ANYMORE LAH
lumiere says (1:55 AM):
HAHAHAHAHHAHAA
YOU SUCK
PEOPLE TELL YOU ANSWER EDI STILL DUNNO
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:55 AM):
lol i thought it was a trick
lumiere says (1:56 AM):
HAHAHA WHAT
why you dunno your movies one!!!
BATMAN BEGINS
SUPERMAN RETURNS
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:56 AM):
but i watch superman before!!
i just thought
dunno
LOL
lumiere says (1:56 AM):
PHAIL
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:56 AM):
lol
eh got somemore anot
lumiere says (1:56 AM):
you know the mango and watermelon one right
please say yes
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:56 AM):
no
what
lumiere says (1:56 AM):
aduh
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:57 AM):
eh faster
lol
lumiere says (1:57 AM):
why you look so
so
ANTICIPATING
you walking in orchard then got mango and watermelon fall down from the trees hit your head which one more painful
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:57 AM):
keghairahan naik
lol
watermelon
unless chop di
then mango la
lumiere says (1:57 AM):
watermelons dont grow on trees you fucking loser
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:57 AM):
unless mango chop oso
then none
LOL
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:58 AM):
what kind of joke is that?! CHEATING
lumiere says (1:58 AM):
NO
SMART
FOR SMART PEOPLE
ok last one
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:58 AM):
LOLL
ok ok
lumiere says (1:58 AM):
if you dunno i seriously whack you
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:58 AM):
lol ok
lumiere says (1:58 AM):
what's the difference between mosquito and fly
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:58 AM):
one suck blood one suck shit
i dunno
lumiere says (1:58 AM):
AHAHAHHAAHAHAHAA
NOLAH
you see
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:58 AM):
LOL
lumiere says (1:59 AM):
a mosquito can fly, but a fly... cannot mosquito
EH DONT DIE PLS
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:59 AM):
OH MY GOD LA
MY ANSWER NICER
DIU
lumiere says (1:59 AM):
SHUT UP LA
MINE COOLER
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:59 AM):
IT MAKES SENSE
lumiere says (1:59 AM):
MINE DOES TOO
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:59 AM):
THAT'S THE PROPBLEM
lumiere says (1:59 AM):
YOU SEE FLY MOSQUITO BEFORE ANOT???
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (1:59 AM):
*PROBLEM OMG
lumiere says (1:59 AM):
GOT ANOT?!?!?!
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (2:00 AM):
eh ya la actually
lol
eeyer why ALL ANSWER WRONG ONE
lumiere says (2:00 AM):
HAHAHAHA
ok
one more
then go do your freaking physics
LAST CHANCE TO GET IT RIGHT
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (2:00 AM):
omg ok ok : D
lumiere says (2:00 AM):
i think you hear before
but nevermind
apple and durian fall on your head
which one more painful
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (2:01 AM):
scared to answer
LOL
lumiere says (2:01 AM):
nvm
teka
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (2:01 AM):
apple
lumiere says (2:01 AM):
if you wrong i laugh ni no big deal
HAHAHAHHAHAAHA
TEKA ALSO TEKA LOGICALLY LA PLS
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (2:01 AM):
LOL
lumiere says (2:01 AM):
THEY BOTH GROW ON TREES
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (2:01 AM):
ok
lumiere says (2:01 AM):
SUCK LA YOU
anyway
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (2:01 AM):
LOL
lumiere says (2:01 AM):
your head more painful la
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (2:01 AM):
WHAT
lumiere says (2:01 AM):
ya the english got problem
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (2:02 AM):
BUT IT WASN'T A CHOICE
lumiere says (2:02 AM):
for ah bengs only
I NEVER SAY ONLY APPLE AND DURIAN ARE THE CHOICES ALSO
I NEVER SAY ALSO
WHICH ONE ONLY MEANS TWO IS IT?!?!
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (2:02 AM):
OMG LA I RATHER DO PHYSICS
lumiere says (2:02 AM):
AHAHAHAHAA
ok so go do
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (2:02 AM):
ok ok you do your oral
lol
lumiere says (2:02 AM):
shit
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (2:02 AM):
aduh stomach very pain
lumiere says (2:02 AM):
now i might put all these lame jokes in
THANKS TO YOU LA
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (2:02 AM):
i think all the wind go inside
LOL
your blog ah
ok
lol
i tell beatrice to go read
she sure become fan
lumiere says (2:02 AM):
lol
lumiere says (2:03 AM):
i copy paste our conversation her
there*
SIMPLE
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (2:03 AM):
EH DON'T LA LOL
SO EMBARRASSING
lumiere says (2:03 AM):
;D
Charlie is not drunk la you stupids : P says (2:03 AM):
FLATDO
lumiere says (2:03 AM):
yeah
thats the point right

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hehe.

There's a place I dream about
Where the sun never goes out
And the sky is deep and blue
Won't you take me there with you?

Oh, we can begin again
Shed our skin, let the sun shine in
At the edge of the ocean
We can start over again

There's a world I've always known
Somewhere far away from home
When I close my eyes I see
All the space and mystery

Oh, we can begin again
Shed our skin, let the sun shine in
At the edge of the ocean
We can start over again

eh i'm sick lor.
bye.