right, guys, i've got a job which i'm starting on friday or saturday. come visit me! Ideko@theCurve :) i'm definitely working monday. because i get triple pay on monday. which comes up to about RM18 per hour.

RM18 PER HOUR.

i love my life.

now that PMR is over, there isn't much of a difference in my life. i don't study all that often - i mean, i do, you know, but it can hardly compare to how much people like chan keat and wen li study. or even ai ling. or ry-ann. haha. mostly i'm on the computer listening to recordings i made of the sejarah textbook. yes i did that. i've already deleted them, though.

i was at guki&rin's place yesterday, got a mild fever there but i think i'm alright now. we went to karaoke at 12 to 3.30... a.m. hahaha. i want to do it more often, k at night is inexplicably funner.

unfortunately now i'm really really tired so i'm going to turn in early. hopefully get a good night's sleep for the first time in ages

thanks john for staying up the whole night with me!

hi everybody else - good luck for the week!

i should announce that i won't be updating more often. seems like i always update when i'm supposed to be on hiatus. :P anyway nobody needs to pay attention to this part except

where are you man. not answering your cell, landline, email (after emailing me so many times..!). terrible guy. anyway faster faster i have got important things to discuss with you la.

also, to join or not to join? Roland Piano Festival 2009. my teacher la ask me to join. but you have to pay to join, wtf, and i'm such a cheapskate. she told me to join either pop piano or jazz piano because you use your own arrangements... but... my arrangements are always impromptu!!!! die wei if i use an improvised thing for the competition :P but i want to join the jazz piano category. how! i only have until monday to decide ):

aiya why am i stressing. i probably won't join. i don't like competitions.

speaking of which: do i get another gold medal this year for the new south wales thing? i mean a high distinction is practically guaranteed for me (chewah), but i would like a medal hor :P i'm the only repeat winner for english (and i got it four years in a row lor). see, i'm just that good MOO HA HA HA!

ok enough bragging. isn't my blog very wordy? i know a lot of people don't like to read my blog. i shall post pictures after PMR ok! もう少し待ってくだっぱい!

obviously, i lied. but there's no difference anyway, my updates are all short.

i'm annoyed though. by myself this time. you know, my standards for myself are very, very high (too high). you people think i'm just another one of those slightly-above-averagely smart kids who's just too lazy to realise her full potential. so now i'm going to tell you the truth - i'm not.

what makes you think i'm smart? is it the way i speak? is it my fantastic command of english? i only speak eloquently when my personal interests are concerned. my english is only excellent when i am emotionally involved in something. anyway these things are not a measure of my intelligence. oh, yes, i am very intelligent. i'm not denying that. but you see, you don't know why i'm intelligent. tell me now why you think i'm smart.

english? smart people don't have to have good english.

what else is there? my math is unquestionably terrible. my science, mediocre at best. let's not even go into geography and history - though you don't have to be smart to be good at those subjects.

see, nothing sets me above the rest of you. i'm not even good at debating, or any of those other things people like sophia and her lackeys are good at. and yet people say i'm more intelligent than them. because i get grades like mine without studying?

so what? they aren't good by any stretch of the word.

it's not intelligent to throw away your entire academical future without even trying first. as i have. and now i'm trying and what does that get me? an A for english (a really low A, compared to my previous grades), barely scraped an A for math, and another A for BM. the rest all C's and B's. it's not enough to start trying only after five years of failing (i say five because i owned everyone from standard 1 to 3, though that isn't saying much). i'm only good at languages, because that is my forte. being better than everyone else at something doesn't automatically make me intelligent. if i'm good at music (hey, i am, actually) it doesn't mean i'm OMG SO GOD DAMNED SMART. i'm just good at it.

yeah even though i say all this, i know i am intelligent. i guess the point here is that i'm pissed off with everyone telling me i'm intelligent when i know i haven't really shown them that i am. until i show you my prowess, ignore everything else about me. look at my grades. is that your idea of intelligence? i know, i know, i always tell people that academic excellence doesn't always equal intelligence. but to me, to be truly intelligent by my standards, i have to be intelligent in all areas. which includes planning for my future. and i have really, really big ambitions. so how am i going to achieve them if i go on like this...?

i have reasons for being the way i am. i'm not going to blame it all on my personal life - though that is an enormous factor - because i have done this to myself and i will get through it. i know what i am capable of. i am going to do great things.

watch me.

hello hello! i've been very annoyed lately by people who i'm a little surprised to be annoyed by. of course none of them know that i'm annoyed with them, because i'm so awesome at hiding it :P

anyway PMR is next week, and i am not stressed (Y) best right. wahahaha!

every time i think i should be updating this place, but when i open the 'create post' page i go blank. soooo, no updates. until after PMR la at least. then there will be many outings and lots of things to talk about ehehe.