look, it's a kero!

2009-05-07T04:05:00.000-07:00

vocal lessons soon okay? next saturday, 10am. fees are.. unconfirmed, but probably less than rm200 a month. I AM SO EXCITED YOU GUYS, i don't even want to think about anything else because - vocal lessons! :D man i think some of you don't even know i can sing haahhaahaha.

on a related note who wants to join me..? it's cheaper in a group :x

confession

2009-04-02T08:29:00.001-07:00

i am so, so, heart-wrenchingly lonely.

so many people against earth hour

2009-03-28T11:05:00.000-07:00

you can't say i'm stupid for participating because i know what an ultimately useless endeavor it is. what awareness nonsense. reduce global warming. all this is bullshit, and i know it, despite my often trying to convince people otherwise. haha. it's the look of things, you know? so hypocritical to be doing something that i don't believe in. so yeah here's the truth now! earth hour was completely, utterly useless. did you really care? or were you just doing it because everyone else was doing it?

but it was fun. darkness and candle-light and playing with my cats, long past 9.30 pm. that's the real reason i did it, and why i want to do it again sometime soon.

hello my friends

2009-03-19T23:52:00.000-07:00

i know that a lot of you have concluded that telling me your problems means having to undergo my judgement. but you know what? that isn't true. even though sometimes i don't give a fuck about your problems (only because i find it hard to even give a fuck about my own), i will still give you what you need. when you tell me things, i will not judge you.

please believe me.

fields of happiness

2009-03-18T07:01:00.000-07:00

here are your sunflowers

duality

2009-03-03T03:35:00.000-08:00

how naive i was when i assumed that my friendships would go on without me needing to put in more effort than i can afford. it's not that way, will never be that way. because next to none of my friends really need me, kan? you don't have to lie to me. i know.

i want to name names, i want to tell the world who i'm talking about, but what would be the point? i'm already being left out of things, it was happening right in front of my eyes last year but i was too blind to see - or perhaps just too tired of being hurt. isn't it strange how it's the people i thought i was least close to who are now keeping in touch with me the best?

hey.

chemistry is my favourite subject.

reviving the ol' blogspot

2009-03-01T04:38:00.000-08:00

right now i'm wondering how long it will take for my schoolmates to find my blog. as you all know i'm something of a stalker d: so i'm reading (ex) sri nobelians' blogs. it's quite funny because a couple of them actually write. as in, poems and shit. only they suck hahaha. i'm not going to name names because i'll probably be hurt for it - if they ever find this, which is doubtful because i don't think i'll tell them kan d: got to have somewhere to bitch about them.

speaking of school la, it's better and worse than i thought it would be. better in the sense that i made friends alright, and work is not too bad. worse in the sense that there's no one i can really click with, and people here are, frankly, pretty unintelligent compared to DJ students. i actually thought people would be really smart/competitive. well i thought wrong d:

have been on auto-pilot in school, i mean, it's really fucking exhausting. more so than DJ because at DJ i had friends who knew what i go through most days. here, not so. and like i said before i'm not planning on telling them much of anything. i mean sure i tell nicole about shit that happens to my relatives, but that's because they're my relatives. not my immediate family, except one time when i was really feeling pressured and so i said something about my mother that most people don't even suspect. haha. she knows nothing about me though d: thats the way i'd like to keep it.

also, my subordinate in the editorial board for the school magazine is an idiot. honestly. i edit your fucking article you TAKE MY EDITING AND USE IT LA. god. my proficiency and eloquence with english >>>>>>>>>>>>>> yours. kthxbai.

ah my cat is so cute.

guys, guys -

2009-02-28T02:57:00.001-08:00

don't forget to fly.

best presentation: 4 Gold

2009-02-28T02:17:00.000-08:00

yeah, this is my class :) all very happy after winning best presentation even though we did it all in two days. got one intruder there haha, and one person missing.

top row L-R: kah juan the class monitor, eugene very cute one, eunice: best presenter, fiona really looks like changmin from dbsk dunno why nobody else thinks so, jonathan, nathaniel is the psycho guy i've been telling some of you about
second row L-R: yi shuen is evil during pictionary games, wong - yes, wong, though his name is really hoi chun and his voice is so damn cute hahaha, kai ling the intruder and also my soon-to-be karaoke kaki, nicole who shares my love for weird clothes and is crazy in a way that reminds me of ry-ann, ms. ng our class teacher, and me.

shih keng is missing ):

hey, sweetheart,

2009-02-25T02:35:00.000-08:00

who are you trying to impress? you don't fool me with your pretentious posturing. (hello alliteration)

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in other news,
school is as usual.

i've been doing some stupid things, and some thinking, and i think i'm getting better. all my problems now are physical, nothing in the mind. but yeah i've said this before and have been proved wrong. like i said, though, i think this year is going to be good. so maybe i'll be proved right.

cheers.

my darling since

2009-02-14T04:20:00.000-08:00

you and
i are thoroughly haunted by
what neither is any
echo of dream nor
any flowering of any

echo (but the echo
of the flower of

Dreaming) somewhere behind us
always trying (or sometimes trying under
us) to is it
find somehow (but O gracefully) a
we, entirely whose least

breathing may surprise
ourselves

-let's then
despise what is not courage my

darling(for only Nobody knows
where truth grows why
birds fly and
especially who the moon is.

~ e. e. cummings

kepada yg amat berhormat emily mah

2009-02-05T00:16:00.000-08:00

oi fucker get well soon

interlude

2009-01-18T00:24:00.000-08:00

2009-01-15T01:36:00.000-08:00

school is going very well. i've got approval to start a film & drama club, and i applied for the position of editor-in-chief for the school magazine's editorial board. will probably be joining the music club as well, so i'm going to get the choir up and running. i haven't really thought about what i'm missing at DJ in all the days i've been here - there's been so much to do, so many new things to experience, so much so that i don't think i really even miss DJ at all. i mean, i got pretty nostalgic (hah, it's only been a few months) when i went back there on friday, but at sri nobel i don't get any sort of feeling like that haha.

my classmates are great! to rin: there's this guy who looks like NINOMIYA!!!!! he's such an ah beng... but he is hilarious hahaha.

alright, i've got about one and a half hours to finish up my nordin homework so i'll update this post later! speaking of homework - i have been doing ALL of my homework so far ehehe. i haven't missed a single day of homework. aint that a miracle :P

note

2009-01-04T02:04:00.000-08:00

i moved my makeup wishlist to the navigation :D so you can go have a look-see anytime! will cross stuff out when i (hopefully) get them 8D and periodically i will add things also ehehe

hi guys!

2008-12-27T23:40:00.000-08:00

Update: 31/12/2008

today's the last day of the year kan. doesn't feel very different to me haha. i mean, sure la 2008 was a pretty shitty year for me. but aren't all years like that. excluding, of course, the times when i was young and careless. though you know times like those were a very, very long time ago.

and okay, though i said i wouldn't miss anything about DJ and i hate all the people there... i lied :P i mean, i'll only miss a few of you, but still. you should know who you are ya. being very honest i'm a bit wary of going to my new school, i feel like i'm not going to be able to click with anyone there. you know la i like to talk about serious things once in a while, and if i can't do that with you i probably won't talk to you very much. feel like the people there won't do that, so probably going to go without friends for a bit :P unless i am, happily, proved wrong about them!

thank you to the three people who commented on the meme : ) got my suspicions about who you are, but yeah not going to say anything. come la haters, flame me! i know got alot of people hate me la. and even if you like me sure got things about me that annoy you half to death right. tell me tell meeee

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this is an anonymous meme :)

in with new, out with the old, right? you've had a whole year to build up both positive and negative opinions of people and now it's time to tell the truth. leave anonymous comments telling people how you've come to think of them in this past year, your favorite memory with them, something that always annoyed you about them...whatever you want. just get it off your chest so you can start this new year with a clear mind.

bring it! if you hate me, tell me. i won't log your ips and hunt you down, no worries there ;) just let me know how you feeeel. yes, anonymous comments are allowed here, so post away!

2008-12-25T10:43:00.000-08:00

right, you know what i really hate? bad writing being made to seem good. i don't mean to be spiteful (well, maybe a bit), but god the kind of crap that people think is good nowadays makes me want to throw up. yeah i'm talking about the writing of people i know, so what? i don't want to say it to their faces and crush their dreams of becoming authors or journalists or screenwriters and all. you might be complete rubbish, but hey! there's still hope. you could write radio adverts. they're full of shit.

what, it's 'well written'? these people can't write to save their lives! and people actually praise that nonsense. i have been copied more times than i can count by people like these, my ideas, my style of writing, everything. i hate it. and you know what's the funniest thing? they think they're BETTER than me!

FUCK YOU. YOUR WRITING IS FIT FOR NOTHING BUT THE DUMPSTER.

MAI LURVE

2008-12-23T03:13:00.000-08:00

:P

this is charlie! as you can see, she is very hot. i only realised this recently because suddenly her hair has become very nice and she wore nice clothes!! NICE CLOTHES!! i don't know why this is so shocking.

but yeah.

charlie is hot! with this, perhaps her ego will finally combust.

to my dear marilyn,

2008-12-13T02:24:00.000-08:00

why you ffk me

D:

a semi-proper post

2008-12-12T22:48:00.000-08:00

so. tomorrow will mark the start of my extremely busy holiday. i'm not particularly excited, because everyone knows how draining a (gasp!) Social Life is to me. but it's ok. i boleh.

actually i thought i had lots to talk about, but i don't la. no i mean i DO, i've been doing lots of cool stuff, and i want to talk about a lot of things, but somehow when i open this stupid blogger create post thingy everything flies away. there's no more wit :P

ok la. no point in typing nonsense when i have nothing to say!

people, do come to comic fiesta this year :D

extremely important message

2008-12-12T05:00:00.001-08:00

NOBODY IS ALLOWED TO TALK TO ME ABOUT FOREVER21 FAUX CROC SKIN ANKLE BOOTS AAAAAAHHHHHHHH

i hate you becky ):

on the bright side my bobbi brown eyeliner brush is ace!

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ankle bootsssssss aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh

2008-12-11T05:33:00.001-08:00

i've got a schedule! hahaha. just in case anyone wishes to request my awesome presence for an outing :) check my sidebar!

just keeping the ol' blog alive

2008-12-07T08:01:00.000-08:00

Use Google Images to search for the answers to the questions below. Then, choose a picture in the first page of results, and post it as your answer. ~~After that tag 7 people.~~

Q1. The age of my next birthday

Q2. A place I'd like to visit

Q3. A favorite place

Q4. A favorite food

chocolate oatmeal, darlings.

Q5. A favorite color

Q6. The city I live in

Q7. The city I was born in

Q8. A nickname I had

Q9. A bad habit

Q10. A hobby

Q11. Current wish list (max 3 items)

to be safe in the landscape of my mind.

Q12. A favorite thing

Q13. College major

Q14. Name of first (and only) love

this is exhausting.

resolution

2008-12-03T01:00:00.000-08:00

today, i stopped trusting you. i feel better already. :)

on a lighter note, my dad got me notorious by ralph lauren. i like the fragrance, it's less floral than romance (thank god, i don't like wearing floral perfumes). also, i think i want to get awesome platform mary janes. someone teman me to sungai wang?

AND! i need someone to teman me to Centro (KL Sentral) on friday because i don't like taking public transport alone even though my mom lets me ): um, going there for some dinner party thing~ everybody is welcome :) all of them are writers! so if you're not into books and stuff maybe not for you lol.

2008-11-27T09:07:00.000-08:00

質問:如何して人は死ぬの?

応え:神は人殺しだから。